Saturday, May 17, 2008

I'm a College Graduate!!!!


I graduated today! This is one of the happiest days of my life! I got a lot of really cool gifts but there is one that stood out as one of the coolest gifts that I have ever received. Matt Doan, high school pastor extraordinaire, gave me a book of Puritan prayers. I went outside after everyone left the party and in the quiet and alone-ness of Eric and Becky's backyard, randomly opened the book to a prayer and was immediately convicted. God's immediate and direct conviction is such a tough thing to receive, but such a sweet thing to receive. At this time in my life, it is so easy to get a big head. I have received a lot of congratulations today and people have been telling me how great it is that I stuck with it and graduated and how the fact that I stuck with it speaks highly of my character. To be honest, it was going to my head until I read this prayer:

My God,
Thou hast helped me to see that whatever good be in honour and rejoicing, how good is He who gives them, and can withdraw them; that blessedness does not lie so much in receiving good from an in Thee, but in holding forth Thy glory and virtue; that it is an amazing thing thing to see Deity in a creature, speaking, acting, filling, shining through it; that nothing is good but Thee, that I am near good when I a near thee, that to be like Thee is a glorious thing: that is my magnet, my attraction. Thou art all my good in times of peace, my only support in times of trouble, my only sufficiency when life shall end. Help me to see how good Thy will is in all, and even when it crosses mine teach me to be pleased with it, Grant me to feel thee in fire, and food and ever providence, and to see that Thy many gifts and creatures are but Thy hands and fingers taking hold of me. Thou bottomless fountain of all good, I give myself to Thee out of love, for all I have or own is Thine, my goods, family, church, self, to do with as Thou wilt, to honour Thyself by me, and by all mine. If it be consistent with Thy eternal counsels, the purpose of Thy grace, and the great ends of Thy glory, then bestow upon me the blessings of Thy comforts; if not, let me resign myself to Thy wiser determinations. Amen.

Since I am not a Puritan, here is my prayer (in true Doan style):

God,
In this time of constant congratulations and accolades, please do not let me get a big head. I do not deserve any glory for this but I give this up for Your glory through me. I give this to you to praise You for what You have given me the strength to accomplish.

1 comment:

Matt Doan said...

Wow, thanks for the shout out.
I felt prideful about it
until I read the prayer for myself!

I seriously love this prayer
and want to/need to read this specific one every day.
I think I will actually.